28. Happiness damn near destroys you;

breaks your faith to pieces on the floor. So you tell yourself, that's enough for now. Happiness has a violent roar. Happiness is like the old man told me: "Look for it, but you'll never find it at all. Let it go, live your life and leave it. Then one day, wake up and she'll be home. Home, home, home."

This past week I've been feeling a little under-the-weather. It's been sunny and beautiful outside. And me? Well, I've been moping, and whatever, around. I just .. I still just need relief. I'm waiting for it.. Luckily, I got a little relief the weekend of the fourth and last week and weekend! :]

It started on Friday the 3rd; I drove down with Chris [Adoboy] to San Diego for a meeting with the btvfam for an upcoming show [F.A.P -- which btw you should all go to!]; and although I didn't exactly want to drive all the way down there, I did and it was okay. :] It was more of a hangout than a meeting. hahah. way to get business done. We went over some details of the show and then we chilled and talked for a bit. Afterwards, we hit up Lefty's Pizza and it was pretty good. Food coma for days, but good! :] thanks to Conrad for the suggestion. I REMEMBER HIS NAME NOW LORIS! :]]]] See, I'm not THAT horrible with names. cute too. ahahahaha. We chilled for a little afterwards and then I drove home the end of friday!

Saturday, July 4, 2009 was by far the best July 4th I've EVER had.. EVER! BOMB! literally. lollololasdfol :] Earlier in the afternoonish time, my aunt and her kids came over. We had a little BBQ and then we watched the local parade from my backyard and just chilled. Around 5:30 ish, Michelle, Henry, and I went BACK down to San Diego and we went to Naval Base Point Loma [a submarine base].

[The beach on the way there!][Boobies! :]]] HAHAH. well Boob and a 1/2]Henry was part of the base way back when and his friend George or.. "G" was Lieutenant and he supervised the big .. bomb. bomb! or something. So we went to visit, took a tour of the place. The thing that interested me the most was the "sinking building" by the submarines! lol tight! We ate a little bit and grubbed on hot dogs and hamburgers and RED VELVET CAKE. ughhh. bomb. and then we just chilled some more. around 9PM we watched like 6 different fireworks shows from the harbor! It was amazing.
[This was our view from the top of the hill. Beautiful.] You could hear the music from the club all the way in the harbor. I don't even know how to explain it. It was just amazing. and then we went home, which took like 3 hours due to traffic! boo. but amazing night nonetheless! Many bombs. :]

Sunday was pretty good too! :] My cousin Tracy came down to visit from Chicago with her husband Jaieeee and AVAGIRL! :] It was Ava's 1st birthday!She's a little cutie! She's a chinky white girl. Cutest thing you have EVER seen! Real talk. I just want to take her home... forever! We ate and chilled and ate and chilled. Annie made dessert like always haha. and then she brought out Ava's birthday cake.

LOOK AT HER! She's so adorable! After cake and presents we played taboo. We took turns trying to figure out the words. And eventually we began acting them out. Then it was Tracy and my turn [ we were partners ]. I made the mistake of getting the words "crochet" and "croquet" mixed up. I started acting out "crochet" so I began to pretend to be knitting and such. Then, Tracy looked at me and was like.. wth are you doing. and I looked at the word and realized it was "croquet". And I got all embarrassed so I ran away "I don't want to play anymore!!!" and then yelling "don't laugh at me" from behind the wall in the kitchen AHHAHAHAHA. I got made fun of all night long for that. Oh, I'm so lame. After the game was over a few of us went to Guppies in Hacienda Heights so that Jaie could try it for the first time! :]]] We got shaved ice and brick toast. :] yum. The end of Sunday!

Monday was whatever. I stayed at home and babysat.

On Tuesday, I went to class. Astronomy is lame. :[ And then, there was another BTVfam/FAP meeting. Only this time it was in Cerritos [still kinda far but THANKFULLY it wasn't in SD. Otherwise, I wouldn't have gone. haha] I drove down kind of early so I met up with Loris, who was studying at Starbucks. I attempted to study but that didn't really happen. At around 7pm, Jae, Loris, Mel, Amanda and I met up at Mr. Lee's KBBQ and ate dinner. Then we got our flyers to distribute. Honestly, they never really are actual meetings; they're more like hang-outs.

Thursday I went to school, and then to It's A Grind Open Mic Night. :] Everybody and their momma came. It was so crowded. :] Full of amazing people, and amazing music. And then we chilled at Albertaco's afterwards. :] Guacamole is a NO. NEVER AGAIN. ugh. I still feel it bubbling. ;[ sigh. But we jammed forever that night at Albertaco's. Backstreet Boys, Britney Spears, Jason Mraz, Freestyling, everything. We had our own band too. 3 guitars, 1 ukulele, and a cajon. Bomb night of music. :]

Friday was a little bit of a bust. It started out good, but ended on a sour note. I went to Boiling Crab with my sister, her kids, and my brother. Attempted to sell tickets, but people were being a little stingy! D; and then we drove home. On my way out of the car to go into the house, I began searching myself for my keys because I remembered that I had them when I left the house. But then it dawned on me, I went to my car to grab the tickets and flyers before I left. So, I looked in the window of my car. Lo and behold, my keys sat, staring at me from the driver's seat, virtually slapping me in the face; I left my keys in the car. Now, I have a manual key. I don't have the ones with the button. So, whenever I get out of my car I would have to press the lock button on the door. This has become a habit for me; it's automatic for me now. I get out, press the lock button, and I'm on my way. The habit kicked me in the face that night. But whatever. I twittered it. and my cousins offered to come help me.

Saturday was better. My cousin, Tish came over in the AM/afternoonish time. And she called AAA for me to get my key. :]] Thanks Tish, I owe you big! And Aimee too. LOVE YOU. :]] After my sister, her kids, and I went to TGIFridays and ate dinner. Afterwards, I took the kids to watch Ice Age 3: Dawn of the Dinosaurs. or something. In 3D. It was cute and funny. But we missed like the first 1/3 of it. It's okay though. I still liked it. :]

Sunday was fun, frustrating, and tiring. :] I was supposed to go to Venice Beach, but since it was a BEAUTIFUL day outside everyone and their mamas were there. So we had to go to Huntington Beach instead. :]
I was a little frustrated over that but whatever! It was a nice day. My sister, her boyfriend, her kids, and I went walking and bicycling for a few miles! :] Altogether 6-7 ish miles. my legs are dead. D; still. lol and then afterwards chilled at Malcom's house and then I went home. the end!

Just thought I'd update you on what I've been up to. I've had a lot on my mind lately but I'm not quite sure how to express how I feel. In time, I'll find the right words but until then these thoughts are crowding up in my mind. Be nice and let me vent out to you. :]