I can't seem to get a hold of myself; [13]

Can't even explain what goes on around me ..

Today was a good and bad day. I went to IMPACT in Norwalk at Norwalk High. I went to watch Randolph's last performance before he has to leave for the Philippines. He was singing with Cathy and they sang their original, "Goodbye", and it just fit. Everyone started crying/tearing up; I am sad to see him go. I know I haven't known him for very long, but he is really an inspiration! :[ I'm going to miss you Randolph. Come back soon. Love.

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So, I know I wrote the quote "I love you, I love you, I love you. One for the past, one for the present, and one for the future" wrong in my post about you. But I meant to write it wrong, and the reason for that is: I don't want anyone to know what you really said, even though its not much different ... but those words were meant for me to hear .. and no one else.. and that's why. Yeah .. :\

I know I said in my last post that I was tired of thinking about what was going on. And truth is I am tired of thinking about it, but it does not stop me from doing so. I miss you, and I wish that you would talk to me again. I still don't know what happened to tell you the truth. It all just happened so quickly. I'm not sure what to think of it .. You may not want to talk or ever see me again .. but just know that I am always here for you.. no matter what .. I don't even think you'll read this .. yeah .. okay.. goodnight..