[21] Drowning.

Back to you, it always comes around back to you.


5:48am. Cannot sleep, I even took pills last night to help me. Insomnia has pretty much taken over my life. It's gotten so bad that sometimes I can't function right during the day. Ugh, I just want to sleep forever. That sounds absolutely amazing. Of course, things do not really work out that way.

I feel so congested in both my sinus areas and my chest. I keep coughing [hurray for phlegm.. NAHT ]. I have so much I honestly do not know where it comes from! ;| womp. Ugh, I think the pills are kicking in like NOW. Too bad I cannot go to sleep. I have to get ready for a dentist appointment around 9ish. I mean its only 6am but I'll never wake up.

Also, it's Bac Thanh, Tina, and Kathleen's birthday today. Happy Birthday to all of you. :]]]

Bac Thanh, I miss you. I wish I could see you again. I'm sorry I never took you grocery shopping. It seems like only yesterday when you were still here. We miss you a lot, especially Huan. He's working really hard to make you proud. Come visit me in my dreams. Rest in Paradise. :]

This week is so .. packed with fun filled things! :] I'm excited.

Tina is having a beach/bonfire party thing today and I am contemplating whether or not I should go. I want to, but I'm not sure I'll be able to stay awake while driving. ;|But I haven't seen her in such a long time. :[ I miss her a lot. Maybe I'll go, just for a little bit. :]

Thursday I'm going to the Aquarium of the Pacific with Loris, Chris, and maybe Renabetter & Christops! :] how exciting. They're my favorites. YEY. I'm really excited. ahaha.

Friday, Tina is having a Birthday Dinner Party. :] The theme? I guess like Midsummer Night's Dream! That's cute. Fairies. lol. :] hahah I'm not sure I'll dress like a fairy, but okay! lol.

Saturday, Kathleen is having party at her house! :]] Her theme is Jungle Theme! :] that sounds like fun. I feel like.. rolling around in the dirt and stuff.. but.. NAHT. I don't think that has anything to do with the jungle... but whatever. lol :] I haven't seen Kathleen in the longest time. :] I miss her too.

Basically, I miss everyone [except a few ]. I haven't seen/talked to a lot of people in a long, long time.

Crap, I forgot what I was going to say. ;| Uh...

Ughhh I'm so sleepy now. -.-

Dear "You" -- I hope you are okay. I know you're stressed and everything but I'm just worried about you. I wish you would tell me what's wrong. But I understand why you can't/won't tell me. Just know that no matter what, good or bad, I am here for you. I know things are tough right now, but I'm still here by your side if you need anything. Shoot, I'll even drive all the way over there if you need me to. :] Call/text me if you need anything. :] miss you. mosdef.

Okay, brain is dead now. I need a nap. bye! Oh watch Law&Order:SVU! and watch the episode called Swing. Ugh I cried. its not even that sad. lol ;| lame.