One shot to your heart without breaking your skin; [20]

kept it inside didn't tell no one else; didn't even want to admit it to yourself;& now your chest burns and your back aches from fifteen years of holding the pain; & now you only have yourself to blame if you continue to live this way. Get it together.


8:15am. Bleh, I went to sleep at like 10:30pm last night and I woke up at 3am [Ugh. If you know me, you know that I hate that time.]. Lately, I've been waking up at that time and I am not sure why. Usually, I'll go back to sleep but I don't know, not tonight. I feel nauseous though, maybe cause I haven't eaten since Thursday, or I'm sleepy. whatever.

I'm also a little stressed [like always] because I haven't finished reading and I have yet to start my last essay for history. To be honest, I am not even sure what to write about. The professor let this essay be a "make up your own thesis" type of essay. So, it can be about anything along the lines of the book, Amistad. I am almost done with the book, I think I have like two more chapters or so left. & it's not like its a horrible book, it's actually REALLY interesting and I like reading it. I guess I am just lazy. Anyway, it's due on Sunday and it's already Saturday... CRAP. :[ -sigh.

I should stay home today and read and do my essay. Dangit! I know I should not be going to Loris' birthday party today, but.. shoot. I don't care. haha. I miss her! even though, I saw her at IAG on Thursday. hahah. :] Today is going to make up for the fact that I cannot go to Venice Beach on Sunday to go bicycling because I have to stay home and write my essay. BOO YOU SCHOOL. ugh. It's okay. I will go next weekend.

I miss "You". :[ I am going over there to visit soon. TRUST. I will, even if it kills me. lol. I WILL ;[

Anyway, I think I am going to take a nap before I start getting ready for the birthay party. :]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
LORIS SAPRID!!!!!!!!!
:]! love you. ♥

-- janice♥

P.S. I miss you all of you. Except a few. :] BYE! :]